LET GO!

Waited 3 hours for the CYA briefing, listened to the speaker for 1hr30mins. But Xinyu’s & my conclusion is we can’t join it, cause we still want to play sports & CYA requires lots of commitment. I doubt i’ll have the time to handle both CCAs. Like sis said, i’ll cry my way home everyday complaning bout no time for homework. Ha. But i’m glad that i had attended the talk, least i know it’s not the right CCA for me now.So soccer & touch rug are my top choices.

I’ve been anticipating the arrival of tmr, thinking that i can meet you, thinking that i can tan with you. What’s this now??? I won’t TRY to reason things out, cause i know whatever i’m gonna say will be unreasonable & inconsiderate. You have no idea how much i want a PH to arrive cause that’s the only chance we can go out again. You have no idea how disappointed i was. You have no idea how i felt when you told me you’re sick, i felt nothing in fact. Cause i know things are going to turn out this way. I’ve long expected it. Don’t ask me why, girls’ instincts? HAHA. This is no longer new, it’s just the same old shit.
Screw this nonsense please..
Well, maybe you won’t even see this.

Boys like girls- Let go:
Drink up baby down,
Mmmm, are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
’cause it’s all going off without you,
Excuse me, too busy you’re writing your tragedy,
These mishaps, you bubble wrap,
when you’ve no idea what you’re like.

So let go, let go, jump in,
Oh well, whatcha waiting for,
It’s alright,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown,
Let go, l-let go, just get in,
Oh, it’s so amazing here,
It’s alright,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown.

It gains the more it gives,
And then it rises with the fall,
So hand me that remote,
Can’t you see that all that stuff’s a sideshow.

Such boundless pleasure,
We’ve no time for later now,
You can’t await your own arrival,
You’ve 20 seconds to comply,

So let go, let go, jump in,
Oh well, whatcha waiting for,
It’s alright,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown,
Let go, l-let go, just get in,
Oh, it’s so amazing here,
It’s alright,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown.

So let go, jump in,
Oh well, whatcha waiting for,
It’s alright,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown,
Let go, l-let go, just get in,
Oh, it’s so amazing here,
It’s alright,
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown.

The breakdown.
‘Cause theres beauty in the breakdown.
It’s so amazing here,
’cause theres beauty in the breakdown.

It’s just these dumb-ass series of repeating heartaches.

Roses roses

I really can’t stand the weather of singapore alr man! It’s so freaking hot, i’ve been perspiring for the whole day la! I will die of dehydration soon. Anw, i really hate monday. Need to bring lappy, heavy bag, & practical! Practical alone is alright, but going to lab to be fed by mosquitoes is UNACCEPTABLE!!!! I HATE MOSQUITOES TO THE MAX! WHY DO THEY EVEN EXIST LA?!?

Today’s CCA showcase, guess i will join either tough rug or women’s soccer & SP Changi youth ambassadors! So i can spend more time in airport; a place which i love~.

Ok, i’m really shacked now. I’ve been so shacked since morning. AHHHH!!!

I really like songs by Bon jovi ( Always & i’ll be there for you), the lyrics are beautiful but somehow i think it’s kinda dumb. Why would the guy hold on till this extent? i don’t know why, but i just have this feeling. But i love it still.. The lyrics are really sweet & heart-wrenching. Bon jovi’s songs are unique, though the lyrics depict the same old scenario but the way they put it is just different & simply lovely. You’ll only understand aft you listen to it.

OKOK, my wishlist!! HAHAHA!

1) BAGS (Bagpack! )

2) Personalised laptop pouch. (RED)

3) Camera

4) IPOD classic

5) Lots of tees & jeans!! HAHAHA.

6) Accessories!

7) Peach Vodka.

Unlimited supply of starbucks!!

HAHAHA, these are just what i want i guess. What i need can’t be bought at any price. Well, not exactly a need but something i long for. But my desires will be satisfied by God’s grace & love.

Friends, count no. 3 & 4 out. Hahaha.

NAIYING, what do you want?!?!?

Chris daughtry- Used to:
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clear for the first time that I’d see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there’s you
And at least there’s me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I used to reach for you
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had the just right thing to say
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow
To anywhere at all

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clear for the first time that I’d see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there’s you
And at least there’s me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It’s empty and you’re sad
Don’t you miss the love that we had?

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
The only one around

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clear for the first time that I’d see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there’s you
And at least there’s me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be

To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be
To how it used to be

A rose is more than enough…

Blessings

I guess i had a great day today. I cried alot, guess that’s the only place i can pour my heart out.

Oh yes, rmb one more blessing! That’s Naiying!!

& Cheryl lent me this ‘ I kissed dating goodbye’ . Ha.

Bon jovi- Always:
This Romeo is bleeding
But you can’t see his blood
It’s nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood
You see I’ve always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can’t sing a love song
Like the way it’s meant to be
Well, I guess I’m not that good anymore
But baby, that’s just me

And I will love you, baby – Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day – Always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you – Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say good-bye
What I’d give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I’ve made mistakes, I’m just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you’ve been needing to hear
I’ll wish I was him ’cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby – Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day – Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There’s no price I won’t pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain’t no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We’ll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby – Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day – Always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you – Always

Wooohooo! i’m now surfing net at Esplanade roof terrace! Didn’t expect that wireless will be available here but yea! There’s wireless here!!! Just that it’s a little warm here, everything is pretty alright cept’ that you will see few couples getting intimate here & there. :X

Ok! Guess we’re gonna move to somewhere else soon, don’t wish my ‘friend’ to jump on my back cause i can hear their mating signal!! YUCKS~

I’ll be there for you

Jayne sent me couple of songs today. 2 by Bon jovi, MAN! It’s so NICE!! The lyrics gave me goosebumps! It’s so sweet you know? & they way they delivered it was stupendous! I can just feel the pain & sorrow in their voices. If only.. ahhhhhhhhh~

This is not the song that gave me goosebumps but it just plays ceaselessly in my mind.

Bon jovi- I’ll be there for you:
I guess this time you’re really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it’s suicide

You say you’re cried a thousand rivers
And now you’re swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won’t save me anymore

Now I’m praying to God you’ll give me one more chance, girl

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

I know you know we’re had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can’t buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I’ll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I’ll be the wine

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wan’t there when you were happy
I wasn’t there when you were down
I didn’t mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I’d seen you blow those candles out

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

Learning to fall

Ok, whatever we were up to.

The weather is so bad nowadays! Afraid that i’ll fall sick soon! SHUCKS!!!

Anw, went down to HC today to meet Jieying! Then down to Island creamery!!! We had a tub of Nutella, Xinyu, are you jealous??? HAHA! Ok, feel so fat now! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Tmr’s gonna be a long long day! Sigh..

Boys like girls- Learning to fall:
Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You’re so content it hurts me
I don’t know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I’m learning to fall
I can’t hardly breathe
When I’m going down don’t worry about me
Don’t try this at home
You said you don’t see
I don’t want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn’t catch you like I do
And you don’t know why
You change your clothes and your hair
But I can’t change your mind
Oh, I’m uninvited
So unrequited now

I’m learning to fall
I can’t hardly breathe
When I’m going down don’t worry about me
Don’t try this at home
You said you don’t see
I don’t want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can’t stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I’m learning to fall
I can’t hardly breathe
When I’m going down don’t worry about me
Don’t try this at home
You said you don’t see
I don’t want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I’m learning to fall, I can’t hardly breathe)
(I don’t want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don’t try this at home, You said you don’t see)
I don’t want to know that you know, it should’ve been me
Whoa (I’m learning to fall, I can’t hardly breathe)
(I don’t want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don’t try this at home, You said you don’t see)
I don’t want to know that you know, it should’ve been me

Sunday morning

We looked dumb. (:

I had morning blues.. Grace & Jayne had them too. Don’t know how are they now? HOW ARE YOU GIRLS???

But guess i really enjoyed training! Never really like training in the past, but after weeks w/o training, i actually miss trainings. & i had Mars before training! So i had all the energy to run w/o really feeling tired! HOHOHO! Chocolates give me lots of energy!! (:

Went for Yakun with Jieying after training. Hey Jieying, really love catching up with you la! We can talk about so much things! The past especially! Our team.. Missy, you gotta be strong ok. I know we’ve been telling you this over & over again, but yea! Talk to ME if you want to! C’mon! You better get my present ready!!! HAHAHA! Don’t know if you can see this, but you’ve always been the person i look upon to, in everything. I know how you feel but at the same time, don’t really know how much you’re suffering. C’mon tough guy, cry if you need to! My shoulders are always available for everyone especially my loved ones! MUACK! DD

Be strong my darlings. I’m strong! Don’t worry bout me! I’ll be tough. (:

& OMGOSH! PEIZHEN SAID SHE MISS ME!! HAHAHAHA!

NAI!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Old but lovely~.

Maroon 5- This love:
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you
That someday it would bring me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I’m calling out to you
Singing someday it’ll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow…

Nostalgia

Man, i bet you guys must have felt nostalgic at times. The feeling is so strong right now. I seriously miss my team… We had been through 4 crazy years. Guess they are the ones who really know who i was & who i am. They’ve seen my strongest side & my most vulnerable side too. They’ve seen my tears running down my cheeks like running water, they’ve seen the wildest & with a screw loose me, & they’ve seen the spirit in me. I never need to hide my true self to this people. Cause they know how i was like, they’ve seen how much i’ve changed, so if you guys think i’m rotten, be glad you didn’t see who i was. (: So don’t judge me. Ha. Like i said, sorry that i can’t be anyone you want me to be. Ok, don’t wanna be emo here.

I just need a time of my own. I really wish that i have time to go to somewhere where i can put on music & do what i want & what i like. I want a simple life, please.

I feel weird, don’t know why. Just feel something isn’t right bout me? Can someone just tell me what’s wrong? Oh my Lord, catch me with your outstretched hand. I’m super SIAN.

Nai, can we just meet up someday & chill out at somewhere quiet? We’re both feeling so down. HAHA! C’mon!

Paramore- My heart:
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I’ve fallen down and I can’t do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we’ll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it’s been so long
Since I’ve heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we’ll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your’s

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your’s
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
(It beats, beats for only you. My heart is your’s)
My heart, my heart is your’s
(Please don’t go now, Please don’t fade away)
My heart, my heart is your’s
(Please don’t go now, Please don’t fade away)
My heart is your’s
My heart is your’s
(Please don’t go now, Please don’t fade away)
My heart is your’s
My heart is…

No more truth found in you, just empty words.

Enough of the heartaches

Hey AMANDA & SAMANTHA! C’mon, don’t be jealous! You see, now you girls’ names are in CAP too! Cause Eunice said she likes me, HAHAHAHA!!! Yea, hope we can have some events to meet up soon, love going bananas with all of you!!!!!!!!!

Managed to try out the Green tea blended cream at starbucks today, Jayne, it’s really nice. (: Done my I&OC work, tried to read the microbiology notes, it made me Zzzzzzzzzzz.

I’ll post song in every entry, Peiqi, you know what i’m thinking when i post certain song right? (:

I have lots of songs on my mind now, the lyrics pain me. HAHA! Today’s will be by Usher, i never knew usher can sing like this.. (:

Anw, some group photos on Gracie’s birthday!

Up & on!!

Happy Gracie!!

Usher- Separated:
Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn’t have wings
If love was a sky
We’d be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn’t for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we’re lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We’re not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn’t for me and you

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It’s sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can’t deny
I can’t say we didn’t try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it’s best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I’ll walk away so you don’t have to see me cry
It’s killing me so, why don’t you go

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

Bad tummy ):

Man! I diarrhoea-d 5 times today man! BUT, luckily the pain is not constant. It just warned me with a sharp pain before i dirty my pants with faeces. YUCKS!!

Broke a secret to the cell which i had been hiding, no idea how i feel either. Hahaha.

Ok, i have some work to complete but i super tired now. I wish i can teleport to one fullerton’s starbucks at this very moment. I wanna spend some quality time with myself. Haha.

Rihanna- Take a bow:

Oh, How about a round of applause, Yeah
A standing ovation
Oooooo, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on (come on)
Talkin’ bout’
Girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (on)

[Chorus]
And don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

[Bridge]
Oh, And the award for
The best lie goes to you (goes to you)
For making me believe (that you)
That you could be faithful to me
Let’s hear your speech, Oh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it’s over now